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Fall Into You
5/20/11 | 2:57 PM | 0 comments
Seems so far.. That I have gone down this road,only to find that it ends but looking back..there is one thing that I know I CAN'T MAKE IT ALL ALONE AGAIN 'Cause I'm too weak to stand on my own But all I need is you.So lead me,guide me,hold me, HIDE ME IN LOVE with all that you are and all that you do.Hear me,take me,mold me,break me,oh God just fill all of me as I FALL INTO YOU Just catch me as I fall,but all this time I have felt so alone.Losing myself in my despair with loving armsYou were waiting for me TO LET GO WITH EVERY STEP YOU WERE THERE. as i fall into you.. Sickened in the sun You dare tell me you love me But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way MUHAU2
5/19/11 | 5:23 PM | 0 comments
Distance
| 11:44 AM | 0 comments
The sun is filling up the room And I can hear you dreaming Do you feel the way I do right now? I wish we would just give up Cause the best part is falling Call it anything but love And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" and you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? And please don't stand so close to me I'm having trouble breathing I'm afraid of what you'll see right now I give you everything I am All my broken heart beats Until I know you understand And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" and you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? And I keep waiting For you to take me You keep waiting To say what we have So I make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" and you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? Make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" and you're not listening How long til we call this love, love, love? Claire's favo song <3 a lot of meaning ^^ hopefully you'll get well soon aa I'm not
5/15/11 | 12:51 PM | 0 comments
enough sdh.cukup sampai di sini =).setelah puas sy fikir sudahlah,jgn lagi fikir.cukuplah di sini saja ya?sy mau minta maaf kalau selepas ini sy jadi autism haha,I think today.i just thinking about today.I'll go alone with myself saja.muahaha =).alone bymyside.within a darken and light.sy berani cakap I don't need anyone anymore.I just need myself and He!sy nda mau jadi Gila.owh please kau fanny,don't be emoist!I won't bah.sy bukan emo..owh tulunglah..setiap kali sy try mau HAPUSKAN nya,setiap kali sy mau TANAM KEBENCIAN tentangnya,masa tu jugalah sy sedar sy nda boleh lupakannya.sial!wth..Feeling,can you just get away from my heart?aaaa? BOLEHKAHHH.sy harap sy tiada perasan lagi.sebab DIA sy jadi sowt mcm ni.haha XD~urg akan tny bnda yg sama,they will ask me.and I know they will ask me lagi and lagi and lagi.sy tetap akan jawab benda yg sama.tp jgn tny sy ttg benda yg kasi down me. >.< I just realize,I keep thinking too much of others long time ago.I think of them more than myself.What I've done to them?.I SACRIFICED a lot.That's my big mistake act.so for now and then,I won't repeat it again.sy nda mau ulang lagi kesilapan terbesar sy.You used to CAPTIVATE me by your resonating light,Now,I'm bounded by the life you left behind and thanks for that.~my one pleasant dreams its haunts me on your FACE... ada satu malam sy terjaga,otak sy rasa mcm mau pecah sdh.otot2 semua pun tegang lebih2 d bahagian kepala.and me sedar itu adalah MIMPI BURUK.and the another night,sy alami mimpi yang legih bagus dari mimpi sebelumnya. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along," heck! These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase. I'll make it TRUE for this time. Kadang2,berdiam itu lagi bagus drp bercakap.sy terfikir balik why I don't fight back masa tu?WHY.Give a strength to prove my fault.You're not good enough to make me prove my "Fault" so I won't fight back.I won't do a things that make me HURT.>.< forget it babe,i talk nonsense here hey?It's not anyone.It's just about myself and I.Honestly,I can't deny HOW I'LL MISS the memories,how can I forget the sweet things that you give me even it's not a GOLD but it's yourself inside there.And I know it's just you long time ago. >.< And still I don't know who you are.Am I too complicated? Am I too wrong. hey.. I talk nonsense ok! tiada kaitan It's just my dream ~ I've woken now to find myself In the shadows of all that I have created.Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins.I look into myself but my own heart has been changed.I can't go on like this, I loathe all I've become.I hold my breath, as this life starts to take its toll.I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds......... But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to Lost all faith in the things I have achieved and I.. Lost in a dying world I reach for something more I have grown so weary of this lie I live I wish you to leave me.just leave me..~ I Will Always Love You
5/14/11 | 9:18 PM | 0 comments
If I should stay, I would only be in your way. So I'll go, but I know I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way. And I will always love you. I will always love you. You, my darling you. Hmm. Bittersweet memories that is all I'm taking with me. So, goodbye. Please, don't cry. We both know I'm not what you, you need. And I will always love you. I will always love you. I hope life treats you kind And I hope you have all you've dreamed of. And I wish to you, joy and happiness. But above all this, I wish you love. And I will always love you. I will always love you. I will always love you. I will always love you. I will always love you. I, I will always love you. You, darling, I love you. Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you. a song from Whitney Hudson . I like it <3,this song just for me XD~ Like Apples On Trees
5/5/11 | 2:23 PM | 0 comments
Come Back !I returned with a strange Posters ><.I don't know why I write a lot this night'a.I guess,today opened a new chapter in hapless dictionary of me.'Like Apples On Trees'.Btw,i like apples,i like oranges too but i prefer apple and orange haha XD~.unexpected life' leave the impression that would be great in person.''That's what I've got today.Sometimes,I wanna runaway.I wanna leave you alone,I wanna get it out all by myself.but I started my struggle that I have to end with a satisfactory success of others,how can I do that? Tell me H.O.W?..This feeling always haunt'n me,it's always grown by itself in my BODY,flow through my blood.wth:owh please get away from my life i beg for you,FEELING. For today,as a good start,make this END as a right step for me to move.. Goodbye ... Hey you ~ Gay
| 11:12 AM | 0 comments
Owh,superb gila hri ni =).Sy nda tau dr mana mau mula,dr mana mau start everything.semuanya sebab friendship,tu ja..susah kalau friendship jarak dekat,better jarak jauh kn.kita nda akan sakit hati,kalau ada pun,mungkin nda sesakit bila benda tu berlaku d depan kita ^^.only God knows why~hari ni mcm hari2 biasa juga,still the same.Gay suruh sy balik kepada dia tp sy nda mau tau,sy nda mau kmu sakit hati lagi sana setelah mcm2 yg sy buat utk menyakiti kau.tp tetap juga kau p tegur sy,bodohnya ^^ haha~ ok gay,jgn la terus mcm nie,i bet u yg crazy lama2,pasal kwn yg satu..sy mau tny kau suka dia betul2?sian sy tguk kau pula yg jeles bila tguk dia sama c I kn..sy boleh bygkan mcm mana feeling urg yg kita suka p sama urg lain,biasala tu =),jgn kau simpan lama2 tu perasaan,nanti jadi penyakit..walaupun sy jeles tp sy masih boleh kawal..biar,hehe mcm urg cakap Follow the flow kn ^^.. gay,kau sebenarnya sangat istimewa,bukan OKU r.haha,bukan pa,bnyk org yg d sekeliling yg syg banget sama kau tau,n bila org2 tu sdh syg sama kau,melepaskan kau tu mcm susah bagi mereka,sy faham =)..tulah keistimewaan kau.make others stick with you but at least they'll be confused nanti.tp gay,kau sangat sweeet mcm gula gula montoku XD~. Jgn la sedih2 lagi wahai gay,kau sedih sy pun sedih juga..kalau kau sedih sy teringat balik dia,nda tau napa..kadang2 sy mahu sangat kau jadi chubby,brown eyes sebab when i see you,i see dia juga~~ andu.lupakan ja la gay ^^,kau sangat comel bila menangis,kau nangis kn tadi d dewan mkn? hmpir sy terikut,,tp sy pretend cool,air mata jg last2 andu,tp kmu still sweet..sy da tny pendapat rumate sy pasal perkara ni,and dia suggest,,just let it go saja,jadi mcm yg dulu,kau dgn dia settle bgus2,i'll go with yg dulu2 juga,balik kepada asal..huhu,Gay dapat ka tu aa?please cakap dapat..tp tetap kau akan cakap nie,"kalau dulu boleh la,tp sekarang nda sdh"..Gay,bole jgn fikir pasal sy? can kn,do mcm dulu..jgn down segala,ya gay? kwn mu tu perlu masa myb menerima keadaan n kmu juga need a time..sy kesian tguk kau mcm tu,bole ka sy lari? nda sy sggup tguk kau begini..owh my gay.post ni specel utk kau ~ ... PENGAKUAN: sy suka kau (malu2 lagi haha) kau sweet tau, kau minta puji sikit la, kau jujur, kau bikin panas, kau bitch ~ bnyk lagi sebab why i like you,i like you,i like you... <3 Gay,Don't be so sad.. ~ This is Gay~ Hari Ini
5/3/11 | 11:24 AM | 0 comments
Yaww,aha hari ni,Kenapa pula hari ni?Nda tau la sy.. XD~ myb hari ni sy rasa lain2 kali sehingga sy sempat lagi mau post padahal exam week sdh,just around a corner laek =),Biarlah bukan juga sy selalu update,haha XD~ biar kena cop sebagai 'blog kecurian' nda sy kisah ~~~ok la,hari ni just mcm hari2 yg biasa,tiada yang special pun.tiada juga yang berlaku.owh ada pula,kami p lawatan d KPOKU di Kimanis Papar,esok pula d CVR d Datuk Peter Mojuntin,memang sangat sibuk lebih2 minggu exam. Bukan pasal lawatan sy mau cakap act,sebenarnya pasal my feeling yg always change in every 5 minutes bak kata sy lah~ haha.. ogay lah.Macam mana sy mau mula aa,haha..Ogay,sy rasa cemburu.tu ja haha,napa?nda tau mungkin sebab sy terlalu bnyk berfikir yang bukan-bukan kali,owh come on kau fanny..Nda paya la kau mau sibuk2 berfikir,~ ya,memang betul pun sy MALAS sdh act mau fikir,tp pa boleh buat..sdh depan mata,pa lagi sy mau buat,buang otak sy? kasi hempas d dinding,supaya nda dapat berfikir trus kondem? haha..budu la if sy terfikir mau buat mcm tu,I still want to live my pity life la walaupun even kn,nah jadi makanya sy masih w a r a s sangat ni.haha..tapi bole ka sy lari aa?Kalau bole sy mau lari jauh22xxx p ladang kuda ka,ada bangsal sama rumput hijau,owh god..sy rasa tu ja tempat sy mau p tau!sebab sy rasa tenang sana..pernah sy cakap sama seseorang ni,lau sy terpigi ladang kuda..sy mau ambil tanah nya bikin kenangan haha..but i forget already siapa tu urg~ haha.. lah ilang ingatan kau fanny.. Ogay,i'm cemburu ok? haha..teda2 bah,sy malas mau tguk semua orang sdh,nasib kau ada tau,kasi kwn sy mkn tengahari tadi.THX~ hampir sy nda mau mkn sebab teda selera tp sy mkn juga sebab sy kasihan kau teda kwn mkn,kau lupa bawa sudu comel kau tu,kira mau bagi pinjam mine,maka tambah2 lagi sy cepat2 kasi hbs ma food. "deii,palan2 bah kau fanny..sian kau,kembung sdh mulut kau mkn.tp masi sauk2 nasi lagi" haha~ ya.memang pun..btw kpd org itu Terima Kasih bnyak coz ko kasi kwn sy~sy malu mau ucap thx ma kau..biarlah sy ja ma yg di atas ja tau ^^..hehe~rupanya masih ada urang yg kisah pasal sy..ingatkan teda,kau memang kawan yg baik tau..just sy rasa cemburu SANGATTTTTTTTTTT hari ni.tp sy nda kasi tunjuk la,makin sy kasi tunjuk makin sy mau gila~ wakakaka..jadi pa yg bole sy buat,pretend cool mcm ais box! Haha~ ok sy mau ketawa2 dulu selagi masih sempat,manatau nda lagi sempat esok2 wakaka~haha..ok,hari ni enjoy juga la sikit,sy kagum dgn OKU ni sebab dorg boleh buat bnda yg kita boleh buat,da jg bnda yg dorg boleh buat tp kita nda pndai buat owh biasalah masing2 ada kekurangan ma kelebihan kn~Bagi sy pula,sy nda tau pa kelebihan sy,.sy rasa kekurangan ja yg paling banyak sekali selepas mcm2 yg happen in ma life ini,haha~ sial,sy bukan berfalsafah ogay?.just ckp yg benar saja,,ok,ada urg tny sy pasal love2.kapel2..tulung la.sy langsung nda berminat bah sama kaum kau? ok jgn ganggu sy.msg d facebook.suruh buka chat,tulunglah sy nda minat boys ~ sy akui.haha jd kepada Y,nama nya mcm katun itu sama B nda paya mau usha sm sy,hahaha..sy tau muka ja kau tguk.cakap2 urg Sabah cute kunu..palui.ketara la haha~bla la babi..sorry la terlalu open my post ni tp terus terang la sy katakan kn,drpd berbunga2 ayat.mcm sial..n kepada perempuan yg mau p dakat2 kunu d facebook,sorry la,sy bukan sombong tp sy malas,penat sdh..haha siou bnyk20000x.bkn nda minat girl tp sy teda hati sdh.ogay? haha.. sebenarnya sy cemburu! haha balik2 sdh sy cakap ni.memang pasal cemburu bah sy mau post ni tp nda jadi2 sebab bnyk yg terlintas d fikiran tyme menulis haha~ siou la kalau kamu semua pusing kepala,mari sy tambah pusing lagi haha.. owh ya,kpd orang tu sy cemburu tguk kau jalan sama urg tau? haha.. tp sy diam saja sebab sy malas mau lyn perasaan stupid of me.sy rela kau sombong ka pa,hehe~ jadi mulai hari ni sy relakan saja semua..sy akan acting sangat cool mulai hari ni dan selamanya.kau senyum.sy senyum.kau cakap,sy akan tguk kau bcakap,kau jalan sm urang,sy senyum,kau tguk sy.sy tguk kau balik dgn senyuman yg paling manis =))..nah fair kn? hehe.. jd makanya sy nda perlu risau mau fikir pa2 lagi,owh sy nda akan gila la ^^ ada pun mungkin sikit2 sebab sy perasan juga kadang2 sy nda sedar,hitam sy nmpk,mcm sy d atas awan,ada ka tu sign n symptom bagi mental? wkakaka~ tulung la,, owh ya.btw..Thanks sebab kau ambil berat juga sm sy, "jgn laek kau mkn kubis,kau tu ada gout" hehe. ya bah bos,ok sy nda mkn kubis lagi..kau pun jaga2 la diri.hehe..walaupun sy nda cakap sama kau depan2 tp biarlah sy cakap d sini saja..sebab kau terbaca juga ni mypost bila kau buka blog nanti.. owh my kawan yg sangat sweettttt ~~~ sy cemburu pada hari ini ^^ tp thnks utk everything ^^ fannylene. _ Love Faces_
5/2/11 | 12:02 AM | 0 comments
Love Faces"making it love faces",huh this is song from my favo singer,Trez Song.I liked to hear it until my head're going to lastick+patcha.Today i feel very lonely,super fucking lonelinesssity even other's day i felt the same BUT just today,why? I don't know either,maybe today is labour day?ahh no lah,i think that's not a reason.******* splash!i won't think anymore things that makes me like this~.ogay,i wanna "merapuh" today,it seems so long i hve'nt "merapuh".. Dear Gay, Gay,I know myself outside there but I don't know inside of me gay.. and gay,sometimes you trying to push yourself to get closer with me,but gay..you're wrong if you do.. Somehow I know,gay you isn't mine,you isn't the person that I wanna care after all,the person that I can share my life too,the person that I shall give my precious dise,but gay..If I had another chance,if I rise to life again,I'll prove that you was right! somehow I know that someday it's will end. I won't regret what i've done because I know myheart,and I believe it.Things can ended easily like food,leaving me alone,and I just smile.."what the heck?." Everything happen for a reason,the reason why I'm still standing firm,still pretending nothings happen.that's only one and ever : YOU : burried me into my fault and makes things seems all my fault.Because of she,I got my own way and I'm happy to know that I still can walk inside there.I still alive until now,owh thank you Gay.. you ain't mine but I belong to you. Sincerely, Your Admire |